On a brighter note

Took moster to the doc today. And what did I find at the docs office but the best looking "real life guy" I have seen in a LONG time. I know its not probably nice of me to say since I'm married and all but srsly hes was hot hot hot. and for all you extra crazies out there. 1 I'm not a cheater 2. just beacuse I'm old and married doesn't mean I can't look at the art work for heaven sakes. 3. I'm not bias I'll point out a hot chick to my hubby too.

Some times boys are so stupid and it makes me mad!!

So I am ashammed (srsly I have never in my adult life been ashammed of my family) to say that my little brother has been cheating on his girlfriend for a while now I haven't talked to him just his girlfriend and shes pissed I would be to. So mad in fact that she threatned to never let him see his daughter again. I think I'm really mad at her for that but alas I'm really mad at my brother but I don't want to be. We have never really gotten in to a fight........... but srsly you can't keep it in your pants? and come to find out it seems like I'm the only one who didn't know. I guess my little brothers dad and stepmom new and even like this slut girl, and my sister knew or at least that is what gf is saying. I guess the sister thing kinda makes since because she would be the one he would tell ( I get mad and she doesn't) so he would go to her and ask or talk about it.
Even better yet slut girl is married and from what I've been told (don't know how true it is) LB (little brother) has been having daughter call new GF "mommy" I am so mad about this (alas I don't know if its true or not) how could you do that to someone. and ps the mom is a really good mom. and how bout this for a thought maybe I need to step back and not really do or say anything I mean really is it my place to say anything? ( although I'd like to rip him a new asshole) I just want to be in this little girls life and want her to know me and want to love her. In the end tbh this girl is to good for my brother, and slut girl, (wife) of the other guy and my little brother ....well lets just say that they deserve each other......

P.S. I know I'm missing caps, and commas and all sorts of good stuff ... sorry I just had to get it off my chest. Thanks

What do you say?

What do you say to the coworkers whos son is in the hospital for the second time for the same thing or to another coworker who has some kind of infection and is in the hospital and what about the friend whos brother passed away?
Really I have never been good at these things. I think some great things in my head but they NEVER come out of my mouth the same way as they did in my head and usually I end up saying some thing that is TOTALLY not right.

blah just put me out of my misery..... please!

If it where Christmas I would say BA HUMBUG and just for the record I'm usually a fairly up beat optimistic person

Today I'm really down I don't know it its PMS or my Fng diet or what but let me tell you...IF i decide to pass on the cookies one more time only to find out that I haven't lost any weight I'm going to SCREAM REALLY LOUD! I lurve carbs and have been good about not eating them don't get me wrong I still have grains just not the cookies and cakes. I even started to go to the gym and am not loosing weight granted I've only gone since last Tuesday and (not weekends) but srsly I'm so over weight that I should be able to breath wrong and it fall off!!!!! 5 years ago I was able to stop drinking pop and lose 10 lbs now I stopped drinking pop stopped eating most of the crap I ate and going to the gym and still haven't lost any weight.. well I lost 1.4 fucking pounds srsly that really bites the big one (yeah and the none swearing isn't going so great today.) And really I know your all going to come back with the same crap the (we're all on the same diet plan)girls from work who are already 200 (OK exaggerating there) pounds lighter than I am not working out and still drinking pop AND STILL LOOSING 10 POUNDS A PIECE IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS are going to tell me that it is good and if I feel better than I should keep doing it (which I am cuz I do like going to the gym its like me time and I love it. They have an aqua class 2 days a week !) but srsly they don't even understand what it mean to be fat and the one girl is super excited to fit in to her "skinny" jean (which I am very truly and sincerely excited for her to cuz I've been there before) but my skinny jeans are about 100 light years from now. I do fell more energetic and do feel better BUT I want to see results. My husband says: "You've only been doing it a week give it some time." To which my reply was simply bawling.. I mean really what else is there.

Were going on a cruise in May and I want to look good more than any thing I don't want to be the girl that everyone goes back and talks to there friends about .. you know the whale that was in a swim suit and beached on the swim deck.

Mommy fail!

SO I am such a good mother that I decided to take next Thursday off of work so I can go to my daughters basket ball game!!! I get off work at 6:30 and her games are usually getting over about then.

SO she is telling me yesterday that there is a game on Saturday and to my dismay I am working on that day so I tell her that I can't make it and am bummed as usual ( I love going to this kind of stuff..... call me a freak if you like.) and I think shes a little bummed too but she doesn't say any thing. I mention to her that I got Thursday off so that I can go to her game and she says cool! My husband pipes up with "are you sure she even has a game on Thursday??" Of course she does shes had a game on all Thursday since she started and whats the difference. To which he replies. "Well you better make sure it would suck to take the day off and her not have a game." So daughter settles it and says I'll go look. comes back and says to me...." not only do we not have a game we don't have school that day either!! OMG I suck lol . She does however have one on Tuesday and the girls at work have arrange it so that I can take that day off!!

dropping off the monster

This morning I dropped my son off at school and every day one of his three teachers meets us at the door they always greet him "Hi monster" and he never answers back till I say to him Monster say hi. To which he replies Hi or good morning I always thought this was a morning thing and that he only did it while I was a round until I had this conversation

Monster and I get out of the car and walk in to the school we are met by teacher # 1

T1 "good morning Monster"

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ME: "Monster please say good morning"

Monster "good morning" with a empty look on his face

I then look at the teacher and ask her if he ever says good morning or if he always has to be prompted to respond at which point she tells me he always has to be prompted even by my mother in law after he is picked up from school to tell them good bye??? I then tell his teacher I'm sorry then tell monster that it is rude not to respond to someone who is speaking to you and that he should acknowledge someone when they are talking to him.

I don't know why but this really bothers me. Like I don't have the since or smarts or manners to teach my son not to be polite. Which he is.... he says thank you and ladies first and your welcome although he does still talk with his mouth open (not from my lack of nagging). So I don't know I'm going to talk to him more to night and figure out what is up with the rudeness!!

Friends

Where have all my friends gone? I know this is a weird question and I don't mean any of you reading this I mean friends out side of the computer (or ones that don't live clear across the country). I sometimes feel like I've lost myself in work and home and being a mom and wife and often don't think I fit into the friend category any more :*( why is that? And better yet how do I fix it? and even better yet how do I make new friends? The last friend I made I pretty much stalked, begged, pleaded spent a lot of time trying to befriend and haven't really found I needed or wanted friends until recently I don't know what happened. I often think while I'm at my sons school that it would be so nice to ask one of the ladies if they wanted to go to coffee but Alas I don't drink coffee and wouldn't it be weird if I watched them drink theirs' hmm ,maybe I need to start drinking coffee ??? AND AND AND even more scary what if they said NO omg I'm sure my world would crumble and life as I know it would end and then all the other moms there would just laugh at me ... "psst did you hear that monsters mom thinks shes cool enough to hang out with us MUAHAHAHAHA. Then I also wonder if I would ever fit into there worlds of staying at home when I have a full time job and my house is NEVER clean and my kids are NOT perfect angles. I don't own Uggs or have a mini van and I'm not a size 2 hell I'd love to be a size 7! I'm not on the PTA ohhh whoa is me. I would love to go out with the girls and have a drink and laugh my ass off, go shopping in the mall with out my husband behind me making sure that I know every second we are there that shopping is the bane of his existence. Right now I think some of my problem is not being confident enough in myself to actually have friends I mean that would mean I'd have to leave the house in clothes other than scrubs and I def am worried about some one making beep sounds. (for just once in my life I soooo wanna be the skinny girl!!)